{ Saturday, May 29, 2010♥ }
It's not because I'm 14.
It's not because I don't know how to cherish.
And it's certainly not because I don't love myself.
I can cope, Mum.
All these school stuff, trainings and church activities.
The only reason I sleep late is due to poor time management and the lack of self control.
Otherwise I'd do fine.
Don't worry, and please stop being angry over this.
You say Commandment 4: Honour thy father and mother.
Really, everything would be fine if you didn't poke your nose into this.
Yes, it's for my own good and I am being rude and that equals to being disrespectful which equals to sinning.
But can you just stop controlling what I'm doing to deepen my faith?
I don't go for the activities just to see my friends.
There's a bigger and more impt reason behind it.
You say I have no time to study; I say I'll prove you wrong (and hopefully I can)
This term I think I did pretty well, I improved quite a lot.
I'll plan my time well, less facebook.
Yet when I try to have a tighter schedule you tell me off for not 'loving my body' and not taking good care of it.
Please, I'm enjoying life currently.
I like my busy schedule, even if it means almost no free time.
And as you say, less sleep time.
But at least I'm not wasting my time doing nothing.
And why do I need to spend so much time on my studies?
As long I produce average results or results that do not disappoint,
I think it's okay. (You don't know how hard it is for me to be average here)
Priests and nuns do not need intelligence, rather they need the knowledge, counsel and understanding.
3 of the gifts of the Holy Spirit.
Or should I say that our main goal in life is heading the wrong way?
I remember Father T said before that our aim in life is to go to heaven.
Everything that we do should lead us closer to heaven.
Another priest said that life's greatest disappointment is in not going to heaven when you die.
So what's intelligence for if you don't even have a solid faith?
You are certainly not going to tell FrT about my 'problem' cos I do NOT have one in the 1st place;
I can manage and handle this situation.
Thank God though, for this.
At least you care about my well-being, but tyvm I think I'm fine.
And I'm quite determined to show you that I can manage my own time.
Peace be with you, mum.
