I really hate life.
Hate as in really hate.
This is so stressful.
Exams are over, yes, but I'm busier than ever.

I can only indulge in sports and reading and eating these days.
Wonder what's wrong with me.
I know I should be thanking God for all the wonderful things he has done for me.
But I dont know what I should be grateful for.
The lack of sleep?
This oh-so-sad life?
Or having all those painful memories of the past whenever I log into MSN.

These days, softball is the only thing I look forward to.
Although my throwing really suck.
I dont know why.
My batting is good but not good enough.
And I am scared when catching balls.
Especiall fast ones.
Fielding is okay when it is my batchmates balls,
but not when the seniors bat.
Coach praises me for improving so much and having the correct attitude,
but I dont think I am good enough.
I want to be in the school team next year.
Then only will I have the sense of achievement.
I know I cant do well in my studies.
Juz hoping that I will do well in CCA.

And I hope that I dont get retained in Sec 1 for cat class.
Fr Terence doesnt seem to have a good impression of me.
Well at least i passed the freakin test he gave us,
which was all memory work.
and I handed in the hols hw he gave us.
And I am so committed to my ministry attchment.
Juz that I always come in just in time or if not, late.
And I dun participate in class.
Mainly cos I dun feel like talking, although I know the answer.
If not you'll just think I a stuck-up person.
Whatever.

Sighs I hope everything will just be better.
Seriously I've got to look at things from the bright side.